Recently I’ve found myself waking up in the morning with the feeling of urgency. A sense of rushing. My mind is already 10 steps ahead of my body as I still lay under my covers. I’ve been in constant fatigue, feeling like I can’t quite keep up with life. Finding I’m too drained by my self-imposed to-do list, that I no longer have the energy for creativity and music… for the things that enrich my life and make it beautiful.
My body is tired. My mind is tired. I find myself thinking, “Once I finish my certification, my life will slow down.” But will it? Does life actually ever slow down? Or is it we who have to slow down?
I don’t want to be carried away.
So today, instead of fighting my fatigue, I put down what I was doing, made myself a cup of tea and went onto the front porch and wrote this reflection on rain. I felt calm and centered after. Grateful and alive. I hope you enjoy :-)
Rain
I sit here on the porch listening to the pitter-patter of rain
I hear the distant call of a bird across the tree-line
Nature is harmony
A quiet calmness
A sweet surender
The wind blows softly, nuzzling the leaves of our crabapple tree
Gracefully
Wistfully
I feel soothed by the wind
My attention draws back toward the rhythmic rain as it tap-tap-taps
I feel myself draw inward
A reminder to slow down
Ahh…
I reach for my mug of tea only to realize I’ve already sipped the last sip
Lost in the moment of the sweet wonder of rain
Pleasantly awakened.